Anita

                I’m honestly not one for change. For the past 2 years, every Friday night, my friends have come over and stayed. Tonight we all decide to see a movie, which is fine, but now some people are coming, some aren’t coming. Some people are staying, and I’m not 100% okay with the change. I will also admit this, since no one reads this anyway. I find relief in having my 2 girlfriends there after being surrounded by unsurpassable amounts of Testosterone all the time. Girls I can talk to that are my best friends. Period. I love knowing I can go to them if I have a problem. I just feel a little pushed out right now. I don’t know why, I just do. I should have just put off my school work and hung out with them last night, because I feel like I will never be “let in” again. And that is a horrible feeling. A Friday routine I have gotten so used to have changed so much. And I can’t stop it.